NaBloPoMo Day 17: The Fiction of Relationships

Author’s Note: Edited, revised, and updated on 11-18-2015. That first draft was quite rough. Thank you for wading through this all with me.

I am an avid roleplayer. I have been roleplaying — tabletop and larp — for the past ten years. Nowadays, my gaming is largely restricted to online forum games but that is still fun as it affords me a writing outlet. There is one that I have been in for the past almost-five years: a Hero System-based X-men rpg entitled “Legacy” where the children of superheroes from both the Marvel and DC universes come together at Xavier’s School for the Gifted to learn to manage their abilities, use them wisely, and, yes, become heroes. I play a young “muggle-born” (in other words, her parents aren’t named superheroes) mutant named Elizabeth Martin and I have played her from an in-character age of fourteen to almost seventeen. And, yes, Zoe Saldana is my character model. Over the past few days, I have found myself reading back through the first scenes, the beginnings of her story years ago. There are 32 pages of bookmarked scenes on my account, ones I have participated in as well as others that concerned her or characters to whom she was tightly bound. And one thing that has always struck me about her is her relationships with other characters, friendly and otherwise.

Betsy has perhaps had the most romantic entanglements of any female character in the game, each of them unique in their own situations and ways. Roleplay like this is an incredibly organic form of writing for me, where my character can change, grow, and surprise me based on her interactions with other characters, plot, and situations within the game. I am able to be startled, surprised, horrified, elated by the things that Betsy does and chooses, how she falls and grows. I have been re-reading and, therefore re-living, some of her romantic relationships and I have happened upon some key differences between them that have struck and clarified some things for me as her writer.

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Geeking Out

For August, I am doing a BloPoMo (Blog Posting Month) with a friend of mine so here we are. ^_^ In other news, I walked over eleven thousand steps yesterday! I cannot tell you the last time that happened. And there is a reason for that. I am currently in attendance at one of the great geek festivals ever: GenCon! I have been coming to this gaming/fandom convention for the past…nine years. Yep. ever since my husband and I got married, we have been coming to GenCon together and it’s usually our last hurrah of summer together.

In case you missed it, I am a gamer. I play tabletop and larp (live action role play) games. I also

Clay and Aisha, about to have a “business discussion”.

cosplay. ^_^ Today, I will be cosplaying “Aisha” from The Losers. I also have all the necessary pieces to throw together a banging new Harley Quinn costume, but we shall see if I feel the need to switch it up. Aisha’s outfit is comfortable, though, I admit, not hugely recognizable, unless, you know, you’re really into Zoe Saldana and her characters (which I am). Yes, I know it’s a comic. No, I haven’t read it. Now shush! I do realize that I forgot to get stuff to do her tattoos on my left arm and right shoulder (especially the left arm), which would have made it probably more recognizable. I could always pop into Hot Topic and grab some make-up there to do it, I suppose. My outfit will be a close approximation, not exact, but you know what? I will still be volatile.

In other good news, yesterday – after we packed the toddler off with the grandparents and got to the convention – I got to spend an entire afternoon/evening with my husband. ALONE. Just us. Again, can’t tell you how long it’s been since that happened. Our plans with friends fell through (which is totally fine) so we got to get dinner and such by ourselves and it was lots of fun, just the two of us. We also got into character for the Werewolf: The Apocalypse game that we will be playing tonight and did some background stuff for our characters – his a medical examiner and mine a defense attorney. I even bought a new dress for the occasion. Squee!

Yes, I’m getting my geek all over the place but it’s my blog so I’m allowed. Today will be full of friends and fun, I am hoping. I need a rock-my-face-off weekend and, so far, it’s been pretty good.

Zoe Saldana as Aisha from “The Losers”